this post is whiny so if you odn't like whining I don't suggest you read it.

So far I’m not really enjoying this book. I’m finding it much more difficult to read than Northern Lights. I’ve fallen asleep while reading it, and the print is much smaller. Oh well, this is why I’m kind of not going to write about it, I’m going to write about whatever I feel like.

I’m tired. School and life in general are exhausting me. I’m awake now, even though I don’t have class for another two hours because I’m too cheap to pay for a parking pass at Miami and too cheap to pay for driving gas to get there, so I ride the bus that takes twice as long.
I don’t fit in at Oxford. I don’t own any name brand clothes I hadn’t even heard of j-crew before coming here, and you know what—j-crew looks exactly like Forever 21 which is like1/21st of the price. I find myself not envious but frustrated at other students who seem to be handed everything. Since I was 15 and I wanted to go on a trip with Young Life that was $600 I started working. My parents couldn’t afford for me to go, but I knew I wanted to so I worked. It taught me to save and it taught me to be proud of what I’ve worked for, and it just drives me nuts when I hear people talk about trips to paris and florida for valentine’s day. What a waste. And Money doesn’t mean anything to them. I really really appreciate the money I have. I hate spending it. When I do save up for something I questions once I have enough if it’s really worth it; for example: I’ve wanted an ipod since before this school year even started, I have wanted a tattoo (cross tattoo don’t hate if you’re not into that sort of thing and you happen to read that post) and I would like to go to Gatlinburg with my boyfriends family (I’m saving even though they’ll want to pay everything for me) and I’d like to go to 4 other concerts this summer that I haven’t paid for already. Now in my spending account I have enough to do all of this, and I look at ipods any time I’m at walmart meijers or best buy—or target, and still no ipod because I just don’t know if I think its worth yet . Spring break, when everyone gets a tattoo, could have got one. Hmmm too bad not me. I still haven’t bought those concert tickets, though I’m sure those will be the for sure thing I do spend , and probably the trip too. Things that have to do with other people, I find easier to just let go of the money lol. Oh well I think this is over my one page double space so I’m going to stop writing now. Have a good one Joe, Oh and btw. I do enjoy coming to your class as well as my other classes in Oxford. I’m just tired and poor.